Shallow

I always remember thinking that people in SD were really sort of shallow as I would listen to these made up women talk about the guys they dated. What he drove for a car, how big his place was and such. No one seemed as interested in the little (big) things like taking out the trash, making dinner a couple nights a week.
It is rare to have any sort of relationship where you can really be yourself with that person, where you can get support even when you feel like you are the worst person on earth. People like the shallow end of the pool too well, no danger, easy movement out of reach.
Me, I am in the fuckin' deep end of the pool of life. I am treading water furiously. I don't mind the deep end when you can just float along but these days it's like 20 foot waves and rip currents grabbing at me. There is no life preserver in sight.